Experiences of Life

She is or will soon see another and will act so sweet You wanna try, wallet is her only treat. She wants money, She wants money, she wants money Yeah, just money She shows shes independent and walks all alone She acts so sweet, she makes it known She wants company but stays all alone She wants money She wants money, She wants money She wants money, quick change She wants money, you just might be in her range. She has it all planned,You wont feel it She will lie and you still want to believe it She has her clan in this scheme She will stab and swim in your bloodstream She wants money, oh she She wants money, she wants money She wants money . In the end she just wanted money....

The girl was so shy when I met her  made me go gaga and she said my smile melted her  Taking one step at a time the journey began with love bombing feeling divine  every morning I promised myself it has to be her and only her as my sunshine. From dates to kisses to fogging mirrors in my car I felt I am the moon and she is my only star Then I decided to push the bar married her and brought her home so that we are never ever far Few months into it I started feeling it  when she accused me of not treating her right I asked her to sit and talk to me straight  she refused and led her father through  The man who made everything worse  both of them treated me so bad and had no remorse  soon it became a silent treatment for the crime unknown Death of relationship became inevitably known Then came the time when she said love is no more Leave the house and shut the door  I tried tried but love can't be forced So accepted it after 8 months when I could ...

And it all comes down, like the tumbling blocks, killing me softly every day by doing a silent talk, All that we are falls to a thousand pieces Caving in my lungs, when you do this to me. And I don't know why you seem so distant and anxious After what I have done, all that we've been through Seems your wandering heart drifted to foreign places Caving in my lungs as you almost take some name I don't understand, tell me am I dreaming? And as we meet the end, you sing me a silent song, again. It echoes in my head, screams I'm not the one anymore or never, I lived for you and I Is this how we say goodbye Hurt me most when you lied & cheated Felt joy when hurting the one who loved you Each day plan to get away and hurt the one To be with one, unknown I lived for you and I Is this how we say goodbye

I've have been cheated and I've been lied I've have been broken down and I've cried I've got nothing to hide no more I've loved and got hurt Broken and broken down with words More grace than I deserved, for sure Known to be crazy, known to be wild Mama had to suffer a little devilish child Ain't no stranger to the troubles at my door I've been at the wrong place at the wrong time Chasin' all the wrong things most of my life Been every kinda lost that you can't find But thought I got one thing right  One thing right, you. I've been wrong about a million times But I got one thing right, I really thought I got one thing right.You ! (wrong again)

I can hear it in the silence In a world that’s chaotic, 'Cause I cant Live without the one, And I’d die if I had to It’s taking me over. Like rain in the sun I don’t understand it But what’s done is done. So I run to potion when the tears won’t stop Nothing else to do when I’m falling in deep depths It’s taking me over And my war is won As now I cant and wont undone . 'Cause What’s done is done . It’s like your heart is an ocean In the waves I am floating,  'Cause your voice is the echo In the valleys of my soul  It’s taking me over Like rain in the sun I don’t understand it  But what’s done is done So I run to potion when the tears won’t stop Nothing else to do when I’m falling in deep depths It’s taking me over And my war is won As now I cant and wont undone What’s done is done

Why does she act this way? Why does she treat me like this? Why did she say that? Why can’t she be nice? Why? Why? Why? The short answer is: Because she’s crazy. You’ll make yourself  crazy if you try to find meaning in her meaningless and casually cruel behaviors. Most of us try to understand the world in which we live to varying degrees. It’s human nature to search for meaning, particularly when there’s no ready explanation for certain phenomena. Its been over good 2 long years , I am trying just to be friends with this girl I love and married but sometimes I think she knows I am trying to hard and is good for a day but then next she behaves like that ultra bitch. How hard it can be to be nice to somebody who is nice to you ?? This is why this article is here. We go to therapy, we pray, we meditate and we conduct scientific research to try to understand  why . I believe a life without meaning isn’t worth living  but,  sometimes, in certain situations and wi...

  Down in the dirt, With your blood on my hands. I blacked out, But now I do understand, That you were too good, For this world so you left it. Everything turned red, And then you made an exit. I don't even know, If it was your time. But like all good things, That pass you by, Just like a lost soul, In the time of need. It made me grow up fast, And put some blood on my knees. And you don't even know It's beyond you. Thinking you could never die, Like you're bulletproof. So I guess you had to leave, You were born with wings. But you were never happy, 'Til the angels sing.