Experiences of Life

This Poem is about a little crush I had recently . I met this 6ft 2inches Tall beautiful Dutch girl at my workplace . To me it looked like she was not comfortable being that tall . But being at the workplace I could not acquire much courage to go and tell her . Don't know if I will ever meet her again but wanted to express this short one-sided love story . So here it is : The Sky has been a little more blue , From the day I first saw you .  In the City of Rising Sun for 5 rings , You looked the only one I would want to drive away in the coming spring .  Being so tall but smile of young & tender  How would you be from the inside I wonder .  You might be taller but that doesn't affect me ,  I love it when you look , smile & wave at me .   I have the general feeling ,  that you sent my mind a reeling .  You have me in a whirl ,  Hopelessly having a crush on a tall blonde Dutch Girl . 

  If your girlfriend or your wife keeps saying sorry , there is absolute very high possibility that she is being manipulative and you don't even realize it . Become very careful .  Let me give you a real life example here . My Ex-wife used to do this so often and me acting like a blue-pill did not help me either.  I caught her plenty of times lying to my face but most of the times I kept mum as I knew she would not answer . Instead the topic will become, since when are you spying on me .  But this one day in particular she crossed the LOC just a little too much . I caught her red-handed lying to me that she is in the office . Instead, she was out with her friends visiting a monument in another city. She did not like other times took responsibility of her actions instead like always projected it on me. She became more abusive and acted more critical . But the way she said,"Sorry" did ring bells in my head.  I objected her that this behaviour is not correct and he...

Being an Alpha male is not easy . You need to have right mind-set for it . Infact, many are not even aware what that is or very little to comprehend.  Firstly , you need to accept the bitter truth . You are not an Alpha male and consciously start working on being one .  When you have a routine of these traits set it will become natural to you and who you are . Alpha mindset and man does not only guarantees you more women attention and sex but it should be adopted because it is the right and correct path to be on . The modern world is very deceptive and if you are not smart enough man to have boundaries as whom to keep and whom to walk away from , it might be troubling to you later.  In my case , I was not an alpha . I became one over time . I let go of many traits when I was in my LTR/Marriage but that was a big mistake. You letting go of your own rules for anyone you love is not right. Marriage or relationship is about making it work together. It isn't one running away a...

  When you marry someone , you love them with everything you got . You make them your best friend , No:1 on speed dial and just the best person ever to be with . But no matter how macho , great , awesome you feel there is very high chance that you are no longer her centre of the universe.  The signs I am about to mention are all what I saw but I never had the courage to dig deeper to find out as who was the man or was she just out in the market trying to trade her hypergamy . It did hurt me to the core and I was broken as a man. I tried everything to ask her , save our marriage but she never actually gave me a solid enough reason to end it. Finally , after 9 months of trying to save it I gave up and accepted it . Did let her go but she took much more than just breaking my heart. Might be the guy she was with encouraged her or her father or her lawyer but she agreeing to do all this has left a big big mark .  But what more I had to accept was that apart from being betrayed...

  In these tragic times of Covid-19 times we all are stuck at home. But one thing which many youngsters or singles feel is the urge of a little romance . He has a new GF , She has a new BF , people getting married or posting reels and pictures on Instagram of "couples" kills you .  This leads to a search .  Search of a lover ,The ONE . So people in these times use the most advanced weapon and gadget created by the human race of 20th Century , "Mobile phone". It's your wingman. You download these apps of Tinder , Bumble ,etc and start your search . Swipe left to ignore , Swipe Right to fall in love.  But the Research here says that numerous hearts have claimed that they got hit by the Cupid arrow as they saw the very first picture.  I heard a thunder , lighting flash and my heart said ," She is beautiful. She is the One I have been waiting for. My entire existence is for her . It's Love at swipe Right".  In my time of being in college and my early 2...

   Today , I really feel as I should tell you as what I did come across was a narcissistic individual whom I made the mistake of making my wife . So , what exactly is narcissism . Let me break it down for you today before I give you traits of such a wife .  Narcissism is a set of personality traits . Characterized by being self-centered, having a sense of entitlement,having a need of admiration and most importantly low agreeableness. When you move past this . It has two types of Narcissistic people   : 1) Grandiose 2) Vulnerable 1) Grandiose - You will see them being super confident , Superficial charm , being arrogant , being resistant to criticism,being callous, unemotional and having externalized anger.   2) Vulnerable - They will be distrusting, feeling insecure,resentful, having lot of shame, being hypersensitive to criticism , being distant, cold,unforgiving and having internalized anger.  But during my therapy and learning more and even bei...

  "I fell in Love with her .  I married her . I was so excited about my life with her and even wanted a child.  She was the one person I chose in my life who made me happy. She made me feel loved, secured , complete as a man. But now what all does this say about me ? That everything I had with her was a figment of my imagination. Infact more than figment .  It was a lie . Everything was right in from me and I could not see it. I just believed it . All of it .  Nothing . No sentence , no punishment, no revenge could ever come close to making up for what she has done. She . Me . Us was a lie. My life for 2 years was a lie. Every feeling. Every Memory. " These lines are one of my previous articles . But they make complete sense for this topic . As I was never involved in one and trusted her with my heart and soul I could never make out that I was just a rebound. In such relationships like which happened in mine things move fast . Everything seems rollercoaster , f...