Experiences of Life

  Dil sab jaanta tha mera , Mohabbat karta tha isliye khamosh rehta tha. Jo bina darr haath thama karti thi , Woh phone ab duur ja akele sunti hai Muhjse sach kehna keh k ,khud jhooth bola karti hai Andha nai chup tha , shayad samaj jaaye yehi khud ko kehta tha. Uska waqt hi mera tohfa tha Par woh hoke bhi naa tha Kyunki meri tarah Dil se nai woh sirf dimag se chalta tha. Fir maine toka,roka aur samjhaya bhi Apne pyaar ka waasta deh manaya bhi  Lekin woh nikal chuka tha apni duniya ki aur Manah k mera mazak woh muskuriya bhi. Beizzat sehte sehte maan liya maine ek din Shayad aadat daalne padegi rehne tumbin Ussdin maine sab chohd diya  Sirf Khud se hi naata johd liya  Woh khush hokar darwaze tak aaya , aage kar haath milaya Uss muskaan ko dekh muhje bot rona aaya ,  Teri gali nai aaunga yeh waada kiya khudse Tohd diye woh bandhan joh baandhe the usse Fir bhi umeed thi woh bulayega Samaj aate hi muhjpe haq jatayega Fir khaya dhoka iss dil ne, dimag ki kahi naa su...

I remember writing this in Last December. Dec2019 when I got to know that I will be heading to Europe and will be visiting France, Switzerland, and Italy on a Business trip.   This is just 3 months after I took a call to walk away from a toxic relationship. Milan was so desired to be visited by her, so some lines describing my feelings when I heard that I would be visiting it .....without her. It's been 3 months since I saw you  Just Insta feeds here and there No chance to tell you what I got dear  The chance to do the things from our bucket list For you and me which I knew you just can't resist I know you would get super angry after hearing this But I am going to Europe in the Jan winter Mist  Roaming the Tourist shops around the ancient town   Drinking Beer and eating Gelato will make you frown  I know you would die to be here  So I won't be posting pictures just to be clear I feel so guilty for not sharing   But the steps you too...

Isn't it strange I still long to call you,  Isn't it strange I feel that I need you,  How much I have missed love, How farther it has gone away.  Since you came I have started breathing again  The way you wait for me each night I wish I could run to you. You know we can't be far, for too long . You from me and Me from You. Heart don't fail me now Cause there is no time to waste Don't shut me out, we shouldn't wait another day I've waited for this way too long with my heart on a high-speed chase, Hear me out, hear me out loud, This might be my last chance to say, Hold me hold me now, I have said in every possible way

She came into my life like a streak of bright light A bad day would turn into good with just her sight  I would talk all evening and she would listen to the random plans I made This was all done in the evening walk we took every day by the lake I thought I have found the one as I was so happy   Found the love I thought I never will  Saved me from this arranged marriage drill  Then I asked her the question and she said YES  I remember looking at the heaven and feeling God Blessed Soon the parents met and agreed The date and time was decided of our creed  We married and I thought I have my love  Only to realize it was not and we are not two doves. 8th day into marriage I cried   I knew the mistake has been made and it can't be undone no matter how hard I tried   I still told myself it's ok, Make your Love to feel her better this way  I had an idea her past fears and love for the past lover has awakened  When she did not...

This word is pretty much which sums my emotional state. And I can actually go on to admit that I am slightly above average empathetic person and a little less than over empathetic. Is it the right balance ?. Yes for all and absolutely no if you are with a narcissistic individual. Somehow, I have always felt that everyone in life deserves a second chance and if you love them, care for them enough; they will change and will become better and will be responsive to your efforts.  But sadly, this is not the case with the narcissist. On one hand, you being empathetic and want to make the other feel free and set absolutely no boundaries for them to see, "Look, love is not that bad and you can be as you always wanted. And someone is there for you, who will not leave you. Everrr". They think the other way around. They will become that bad toddler and will make you cry and push every single boundary line you thought they will never.  It's not them, it's you who is at fault beca...

Hey, just need to tell you something that just can't wait Maybe you'll leave or maybe you'll stay But hey, I have been hurting badly for many days How to say Where is the time when our love did not care about anything Be it the world affairs or boring office tinglings With you, said, you feel like I am  I felt the same you made me feel I am  Hey, won't you come with me from New Delhi to Mumbai? Hey, we'll play aga bai and dance from moonlight to sunrise And maybe we'll stream Lucy million times in one day Be on our way  But, how things change And how the days keep ticking away And how I wish that you were with me today 'Cause I'd give anything to do it again Oh, how you changed Forgot the promises you made  Even to be there when the light fades I felt nice even in your shadow's shade But Love for Money was the trade you made.  With you, said,  you feel like I am  I felt the same you made me feel I am  

I thought I have been spending my time Lost and wasting precious life But when I looked into your eyes I thought I am found and found my way  Yeah, we  both messed up a little too much But since when small fights led to a loss of touch  I thought marriage makes you find your ways  Being  a Couple one never get strays You cheated, lied said no love no more I tried all I could but you had drifted into the sea and I was on the shore I finally learned from the mistake I made  Giving you love and asking same was not a fair trade You wanted more than that  Rupees, dollars, pounds whichever is fat  I was lost once but now I am back to my senses Leaving you behind and moving forward is a newfound Intelligence.